What is family?
They say blood is thicker than water, but my family’s blood must be so thin from all the drinking that their blood is thinner than water. The older I get, the more I see the bullshit my family entails and why my mom left. I can’t blame her for wanting to get away from all this. Family is supposed to be there for each other, communicate, love, and be each other’s rock. Not my family.
My mom’s side of the family is filled with booze, mayhem, and chaos. For most of my life, I don’t remember much of the family being together and getting along. We were together a lot when I was younger, except for a few family members. We used to get together for every holiday, even the ones that most don’t get together for. I am trying to remember the last holiday that I saw my family together, but I cannot.
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I can’t remember the last time my entire family got together and spent time with each other. It’s sad. I wish things were different. I really do, but what am I to do? I stand my ground; I’m wrong. I stay out of it; I feel guilty and bad about it. What am I supposed to do when trying to communicate with them? They refuse to see my side and blow it off as not necessary, and then, I get ignored and even more hurt.
What do I do? I remove myself from the situation. I can no longer keep hurting myself, hoping things will change for the better and I will have a family again. That isn’t an option anymore. I have to remove myself and stop letting it hurt me time and time again. I want happiness.
In most of my posts, I say I want happiness. You may wonder why I say that so often. Honestly, I don’t feel I have ever experienced true happiness. I have had happy moods and good days, but I don’t think I’ve ever been happy for an extended period. I want to change that; I no longer want this life I have been living.
Here’s to removing myself from the situations that don’t encourage me to grow. If you are in a similar position, I hope you find the confidence to remove yourself. If it’s hurting you, leave. If you have done everything in your power and feel nothing is left for you to say, go. Just leave.
Thank you for being here and supporting me! I appreciate every single one of you beautiful people!
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